If I Could Have It My Way

A lot of people have what they call a bucket list. Its a list of things they wish to accomplish before they die. I refuse to do one of these because, one, It would be a rather short list, and two, Id have to much anxiety to get it done fearing I wouldn't fulfill it all before I actually did die. So, I just take life one day at a time and take what it gives me.

I do think often though. I have dreams. I do not think any of my wishes are out of reach. Its just the time and money it would take to get there.

If could have it my way:

• I would no longer work in this smelly office filled with vulgar talk, smoke smog and non-appreciation.
• Id leave it today if I could have it my way.
• I would be working in a more professional office or health care facility of some sort preferably using my phlebotomy training. 
• That job would be located in the place I want to live, the coast.
• It could even be just a part time job to get me by. I don't care to be rich, just comfortable. Id rather find resourceful ways to get by instead of relying on all the luxury of the world.
• I would live in a small house where I can smell, hear and see the ocean from my windows. 
• My windows would always be open If I could have it my way.
• A place where I feel safe to be alone. Where I can have leisure and relaxation.
• I would visit South Port, take bike tours in Beaufort, and see the light houses at the Outer Banks.
• Me and my husband would find a new church together.
• I would have one cat. I wish to have a blue Scottish fold. again, only one.
• I would have all new friends and the true friends here would visit me a couple times a year.
• I would marry my Husband again. We'd have a small ceremony on the beach and a lieu following with lots of people and new friends.
• I have it all planned out, If could have it my way.
• I would not want to be further than a few hours drive from my Mom and Dad.
• and my Daughter would live and work close by.
• I would take up surf fishing.
• I would take a ride on a sail boat, maybe even learn to sail one and have my own.
• I would stay healthy and live to be 100 years old and still leave the world before my loved ones.
• If only I could have it my way.

We will be taking our first beach trip of the year soon. My husband and I will continuously talk about "one of these days". We have a lot of the same dreams. I just feel they are closer than he does. I'm just more spontaneous and optimistic. If it takes a few more years to get started with our wishes, then so be it. Ill take what life throws at me. I am blessed with a wonderful husband and daughter and just knowing how in love we are and enjoy every minute together, makes me happy today.