Thogging (Updated)

Thogging- Made up word by me meaning thinking and blogging or blogging while thinking...
or maybe its already been made up by someone else. I don't know but it sounded good to me.

Have you ever had so much on your mind you feel overwhelmed? That's me. My mind is so full of ideas, worries and thoughts. Stuff is always swirling around in there!  Sometimes its painful.

  

I like to create. I have inspirations on things to create but cant seem to wrap my thoughts and skills around how to do it. Some things I want to make are small enough to fit in the palm of my hand to things big enough to change the look of my house. Its all in there waiting to come out. I'm not going to say I don't have the time or money to do these things because most things are ideas of re-creating and making use of old things. ohhh. The thought process is pounding! Pinterest is dangerous. Just saying.

 

I also have a lot of thoughts on what I want to do in life. I have been working at the same place for twenty years. I'm burnt out. I like what I do but I feel I'm at a dead end and this is it. I want to better myself but do not have the schooling to do so. I thought about getting a certificate in something or taking a small course in something new. What I REALLY want to do is be a Phlebotomist. Its a short class to learn an important skill that I would love to do. BUT, the class is held only once a year and its hard to get in to. Besides, I'm not sure I could even pass the college test or get through an interview. Just another reason I think I've been at one place to long. I have no clue what I would have to go through.

My mind worries. I hear nothing but bad news on TV and local newspaper. Everywhere I go, I'm surrounded by pessimistic people and I'm an Optimistic person. I always try to find the good in everything and everybody. I think bad luck happens to pessimistic people. I also believe if hateful people truly have God in there hearts, they would not be so pessimistic.
I also worry about the world. Its going to hell in a handbag. So many lost people are out there. So much hate. So much sin. So much sickness and no faith. So much immorality. I wish the world would wake up and straighten up. Just imagine how happy everyone in the world would be if we all baked cookies at the same time. Just a thought.

 

My brain wonders. I wonder why friends disappear. One day your hanging out with them and before you know it, they are not around any more. I guess they have a lot of other things to do too. Things I'm not into. I don't know.
I wonder why family is so distant. I have always been the one to do all the calling, texting or just showing up. They never make the effort. By the way, we all live in the same county. I stopped the effort just to see what happened and now I never hear from them unless its at a family get together, This hurts. They do not even read my blog or visit my online store or even follow me on Twitter or Facebook. They have no clue about me any more. I love them but they are never around. I just keep thinking, Thanksgiving will be here soon and well catch up I guess.

I Dream. There are so many things I want to do , places I want to go. Stuff I want to see. Even though we don't have a lot of money, I do not think anything is out of reach, but I'm the only one that thinks that way. I guess its kind of nice not to be able to do things or have things because it gives me something to dream about.

On this all being said, I will continue with new ideas, I will figure things out eventually. I will always be creative, I will be my own friend. I have a wonderful Husband and daughter that I get to see and spend every day with and this makes me happy. I will continue praying for others and just live one day at a time. 

 

I should remember this.......

UPDATE!!!!!

Two months after writing this post, I went to a local school here in my town and completed a Phlebotomy course. So excited and cant wait one day to use my certified skillzzzzzz.